the brave thing scared.


Sometimes choosing what is right, even what you are called to, is freakin’ terrifying. I wear lipstick these days because lipstick makes me feel braver.

I stood at the airport a couple weeks ago and said goodbye to my mom and sisters; everything in me wanted to follow them back home, and I asked myself many times why I chose this kind of life.  But at the same time I looked at these four beautiful children I love, and I knew why I chose this.  Why I chose the constant goodbyes and standing at the departure doors and staying in country that sometimes challenges me. This love for them has propelled me into a culture that is not mine, a life where I am constantly cat-called, prices are raised because of the color of my skin and sometimes they speak about me in Luganda not knowing I can understand some of what they say.  A life where I have to chose to do the brave thing scared.

So I keep choosing. 

If you had asked me a couple months ago my plans for the future, I would have told you I was ready to leave Uganda. I was ready to run.  Then there were teen-aged siblings that needed a place to stay, I knew their story, knew them, but still saying yes was a heavy and scary thing. There was an extra guest room behind my house. I knew the oldest girl, but had only met her brothers briefly.  But I said yes.  I would welcome them to my table, welcome them to my home, advocate for them. I wanted to run many times and I wondered if it was truly the right thing to do. I did that brave thing scared.  It has been six months, and I suddenly do not know what life was like before I was calling them in to eat or going to school meetings or listening to their stories after school.

That is the thing with doing what is brave, sometimes it brings us the greatest gifts.

We were driving home down the dark roads on the way home from the airport while pointing out cars to each other “auntie kris, I guess a van is a family car, so that would make sense to get a van.” I smile as he talks about which car he would choose.  He pauses, “auntie kris, when you buy a car do they allow you to bring your child with you?”.  I answer that, yes, they would allow me to bring my child with me to a car dealership.  “Okay, because when you go I am coming with you.” And it’s a reminder again of why I choose this; because he is twelve years old, lost his parents and walked through hell, but he refers to himself as my child.

I keep choosing to do brave things scared because we all want to belong.

My heart turns to the Israelites as they stood facing the promise land.  They trembled in fear at the news of giants and the unknown; even though it was a land promised to them by a faithful Father. They allowed fear to cripple them, to keep them wandering outside the place God had prepared for them and called them into.  The place that God had told them He would be stronger than their fears and be their provider for every need; but still they wandered. I always shook my head at this story, God had made this promise to them then why were they still so fearful? But then I look at my own life and the American church, stagnant, waiting, hoping but not moving, and suddenly the questions is now about us.

I will choose to do the brave thing scared, terrified, trembling even– if it means following the promises of a Sovereign Father. 

Brave has been redefined for me lately, because most of my days consist of being mom or writing down visions and dreams. Brave is hard, brave is hope filled, brave is facing darkness knowing that the Light is waiting. Brave is surrendering and sacrificing. But brave does not always mean huge adventures, sometimes brave is quiet and still; it blends in with every day life.

Brave can sometimes look mundane.

Brave can mean staying when you want to run or running when you want to stay.

Brave can be sitting next to that person who yearns for a sense of belonging.

Brave can look like school offices and clinics and a children’s shelter.

Brave can also be cooking dinner and mopping floors.

Brave does not have to be extravagant.

But always, brave calls us first to our knees.

As hard as brave can be, I look at this life and a thousand times over I would chose it, again and again. Because this is where heaven meets earth, when we chose to do brave things. I did not think God called me to Uganda to be a foster mom; I had big hopes and bigger dreams, but being mom to these children who have lost everything– I cannot put into words what an honor it is.

These children I have the honor of loving are my heroes, they are the bravest.  They chose brave everyday.  They chose to love and to hope again– after everything they have walked through. The bravest of the braves.

We may walk into the promise land broken, bruised, terrified and trembling, but still we will walk with hearts of praise and hope; that’s all He ever asks of us.

Choose brave. 



wild & beautiful


A year and a half ago I moved to Uganda and I did not really even know what that meant, I had no idea if it would be three months or years or unforeseeable future. I just knew I was going. I cried my way through security, boarded the airplane alone and hoped that someone would be there at the tiny Entebbe airport to pick me. Looking back now, I do not know how I did it- How did I manage to come to this place with one Ugandan friend who would help me navigate this new life?

A year ago I found myself being swallowed by loneliness and feeling purposeless and begging God that there had to be more for me here.  I was so tired of feeling like nothing I did was worth anything. I mopped the floor and blast music about how it would be okay, but I never really believed it. I wanted more than anything to have purpose and meaning on this planet of 7.6 billion people.

And then purpose came, not in a grand display but through the stillness and sorrow and brokenness. It was in the form of a place called home to children finding their way, in offering education to children who just need empowerment, in four children who I strive to love well as I foster and advocate for them. Purpose found me in school offices and government offices and church offices and children home offices. Purpose in situations that were and are the hardest to comprehend and accept.

I have never truly felt complete, felt like I could look at my life and find contentment.  There is now a purpose that has made it’s home in this place and has sat me down in front of a life that I never imagined would be mine. And there’s something so good, something that has been missing my entire life.

It’s a purpose that I wake up with the sun every morning to help my youngest into his uniform and say good morning to my sweet girl as she is the first to hurry off to school, then the fourteen year old walks inside to take a boiled egg or fill his water bottle, and finally that twelve year walks in looking as though his eyes have just opened and he stumbles around looking for his books and asking if he can take sugar to put in the unsweetened porridge at school.   I want to cry because they are so incredibly beautiful and so loved. 

There was a time when I measured my success and failures by busyness, by how long and hard I could go. But now, now that I have finally, finally, felt this purpose, I know that everything means nothing without grace. Ministry takes place in the mundane, when I’m cooking and they are telling stories from the day or teasing the youngest and I cannot believe how I just mopped the house when there are muddy footprints all over my tiled floors again; I catch that twinkle in his eye or the laughter coming in through the windows and suddenly the floors and the teasing and the dirt do not matter so much. This cultivating fierce and wild and brave souls is worth everything. Everything. I would spend a thousand more nights lonely and afraid if I knew this life brought me them.

And at the same time, this purpose is hard because these beautiful souls are missing a mother who was supposed to be the one to love and cherish and grow them. The contradiction I feel– the highest joy and the deepest pain when I see her in them, it makes my heart beat a little deeper, makes me strive to do better.

I say goodnight and ask the fourteen year old to hand me a pot that has been drying on the porch and he looks at me and says “eeeh, aunt kris, do you ever sleep?” because it’s after 10pm and I am putting eggs on the stove to boil for them to take to school the next day. But what he does not know is that this is my greatest honor, to create this place of belonging and to belong to it myself. I see their brave hearts and I cannot understand or fully grasp how I have been entrusted with them, because this feels like I’m witnessing a miracle, the rising of the fiercest souls.

I sit reading Charlotte’s Web to the youngest and I have forgotten that Charlotte dies, he had been so prepared for Wilbur’s untimely death that somehow Charlotte’s departures makes his eyes well up with tears and I stop reading to ask him if he is okay. But this compassion I see, it was not who he was a year ago when he came to live with me and his heart had a wall built around it.  I kiss him goodnight and this is the very best, the purpose found in the small every day things, the humble, the hard, the stirring of beans, the pouring porridge into flasks, the pulling out splinters from fingers and bandaging scrapes. It’s this rhythm that found me when I asked God for more, and He always has more to give.

He has entrusted me with this wildly beautiful life, and I’m still just soaking it in.


no fear in love.

IMG_3449She sits there nervously and she asks me the question she should never have had to ask. The one that reminds me of the grief she has encountered despite her ability to tell jokes and confide in me the fear she struggles with. I look at her mother’s photograph hanging on the wall by the door, this is not how it was supposed to be. Her words fall heavy in the peace filled room “what should I call you? My friend, my sister… a parent?” I look back at her and I find the words to answer her.

“What do you want to call me?”

A quick, shy smile.  Her sweet, small voice quivered as she whispered “I thought maybe I would call you a parent?” 

I smiled, told her that was totally fine with me, prayed for her and then we left.

But it was never totally fine with me. 

Because that was never the way it was supposed to be. Her parents were supposed to be here with her and with her seven siblings, I was not supposed to be the one attending school recitals and picking up school reports or dropping off school supplies. It’s an honor, but it was never supposed to be my honor.


We celebrate the miracle of adoption, bring awareness for the orphan from afar, but this staring a new orphan in the eyes— there is no words for it.  We slap a label of “orphan” on one hundred and forty-seven million children and I think sometimes we forget the heartache and the pain and the brokenness hidden in the one hundred and forty-seven million hearts.

The ministry of orphan care is humbling, confusing, heartbreaking. 

They brought him to the home after his mother abandoned him, the brokenness was unlike anything I had witnessed in another child.  I had just lost a friend, and I remember staring at this tiny three year old boy knowing his entire being was echoing the grief in my soul.  I felt like he was a reflection of everything inside me and somehow, for the first time ever, I related to orphanhood in a way i never had. I felt like God had left me, abandoned me and I wondered how long until true joy would come again. I knew he wondered the same– how could his mother leave him, would she come back for him? 

Oh, orphan sunday, how horrible sad it is that we have a special day for you. Because this orphan Sunday thing? One hundred and forty-seven million souls live every day. 


When Jesus walked this earth I think He felt the weight of the darkness, the need of salvation and restoration was a burden He carried as He spoke with prostitutes and ate with thieves and healed the lame man and stared in the hope filled eyes of the woman who desperately touched His cloak. They needed a Father, we needed a way to boldly approach the throne without hindrance, without fear.

Jesus was the restoration, the offering that would beckon us into a relationship with a Father who’s love and mercy runs deep enough for us.  This adoption draws us into a place where our brokenness can be laid down and our burdens lifted because brokenness cannot survive when redemption wins.

I witnessed the restoration of that three year old tiny heart, not fully completed, but mended enough for him to boldly throw his head back in laughter.  The first day I caught him dancing I saw a sneak peek of the joy that was coming– he just had to keep pursuing it. The sadness that once fully held him hostage has lifted enough that there’s a mischievous twinkle in his eye.  A friend who knew him in his saddest did not recognize him in his new found joy.  Yes, his story is not over yet and there is still hope for him, but for today we love him and we keep longing for more healing for his soul.

Orphan care points me back to a Father who loves so deeply that He replaces the tears with joy and brokenness with a mended heart that is stronger than before.  We are in need of a Father, a heart that pursues us at our worst and rejoices in us at our best. We need adoption that tells us “you are mine and nothing you can ever do, ever say, no where you can ever hide will change that. you are mine and I am forever yours”. 

Church, it is our responsibility to care for orphans because the Father’s heart is for the orphan.  Adoption and orphan care reflect the heart of a Father who knows the hurt and the brokenness we are walking through but meets us there.  It reflects this great love that is overwhelming— we are wanted.  We all yearn to belong and be loved. It is the church to rise for the orphan across the nations and be relentless in our love.

The love He extends to us is expected to run over and create this miracle of witnessing healing and loving orphans. Yes, we are commanded to do so, but His love, His adoption of us, our names in the Book of Life should compel us. And Church, we will never be the same again.


So, here’s to those fighting, loving and placing their hopes in restoration. And to the ones unsure of what orphan care looks like to them, do not let fear hinder you.  Sponsor that child, foster those babies, adopt an older child, empower a family to prevent an orphan. There is no fear in love, and maybe you will have the holy honor of loving a child enough to heal parts of their broken hearts.

Orphan care for me looks like being a cheerleader for a fifteen year old girl and her brothers, offering them a place to stay in my guest house.  It looks like a foster son who has taught me more about fearless love and fighting for hope than anyone else. It’s directing a home through hope of restoration– it’s tiny little souls who make that place a home with others who have walked through the similar darkness of abandonment and loss. They run to greet me and yell “welcome back mommy!” every time I walk through that gate, and there’s a twinkle in their eyes, a hope that’s rising out of darkness, a joy that they’ve battled for.

There’s an honor in just knowing these sweet souls and I am unworthy to witness the restoration that Christ is doing– yes, we are far from whole and far from Home, but there’s a way that joy triumphs, that it creeps it way into the hellish of situations and we cannot help but reach out and touch it. The darkness never wins, it never ever will.  Restoration is His.


when heaven seems far.



I want to see Jesus.”

“You want to see Jesus?” I looked up at him over the pot of vegetables I was frying, his inquiry was abrupt.

“Does He only stay up or may He also come down?”

His six year old understanding of heaven and earth made me laugh.

“No, He stays in heaven, but if you love Him you will see Him again when you die and go to heaven.”

He stared at me as if I had given him the wrong answer and after a moment he responded.

“But I won’t go up.  They put you down when you die. I have seen them dig.”

I looked up at him and realized I had asked God the same question — how, Lord? My friend is buried in the ground, how is he possibly with You? How is heaven possible?

And hope seemed lost and far and maybe I would never find the answers for the weight pressed against my chest.


How God?


It has been a pleading a heart cry, a guilty feeling that creeps up in the middle of the night– taunting me, begging me to answer it.

I did not used to know what it felt like to have someone you know die, suddenly, tragically, or from cancer. I have seen felt them all now. A car accident. A disease that came in like a thief. A complication due to cancer.  Three times in three months I got a phone call and each time it broke me a little more until I found myself pounding walls in the bathroom and screaming at God at midnight.

I carried bricks down the small village path to construct his grave site, and I wondered if God truly had released his weary soul to heaven.  I just needed something, anything to cling to. Death of someone you love makes you aware to the reality that this place is temporary, we labor and sow and in the end it means nothing if death only devours us. But I sat there thinking, if heaven is real it changes death into the most glorious moment of our being. 

I remember that Jesus wept.  He cried out to His Father in those final moments “Eli, Eli, lema sabachthani” My God, My God, why have You forsaken me? I have sat alone and cried out the same. This was never supposed to be the end game. Never. But His love whispers the same, this was never the plan. Never. And I know, He did not intend this hurt, this grief that overwhelmed me in those days when hours seemed to pass so slowly and I had to remember to keep believing that He was only ever good. Sin broke a world of joy and peace, it left us with fights and struggles and broken hallelujahs.  He hurts with us through the wreckage and He beckons us to heaven when we’ve learned hope and joy in the absence of what should have been and the silent places of those we love.

I asked for Him to give me glimpses of hope, of heaven, of being made whole, and He did.  Not in the glamorous way I wanted, but in the small glories and the battles I have witnessed through the spiritual world.

God will reveal Himself in time, through grief– as we choose hope again and again. It is a constant decision, hope. It’s saying “today I will trust that you are rebuilding this wreckage.”  It’s finding the strength to pull that weight off your chest slowly by slowly. It is knowing that it will glorify God in the end because anything He ordained cannot do anything less. It’s placing an expectation in something so glorious as heaven.

I stared at her phone number in my phone, I knew it would never reach her this side of heaven. But I could not delete it, not now. We had called that number the day they told us, not believing it was true, someone answered, hung up and then switched the number off. And I still left it there in the my contacts. I know one day I will meet her again and there will be no need for phones or translation, just us face to face speaking one language.

I answered him simply as I looked into his curious six year old face. His understanding of heaven is immature, it’s young faith but at the same time it’s courageous; it’s a reflection of my own heart looking for answers.  He seeks to understand the mysteries of heaven, yet he humbly acknowledges Jesus and yearns to meet this man he hears loves him and wants what is only good for him.

Oh, He wants what is only good for us.

And maybe I do not need to know the how we get up from down, I just need to trust Him now. Trust that He is powerful enough to welcome a sinner into the gates of heaven because blood stained the earth and made me whole. Trust that He is mighty enough to draw me into His arms after the doubt and wonder. Trust that He is making all things new again.

to suffer together.


Sometimes there are no adequate words, no pictures to be painted with stories, nothing that will do heart ache and tragedy justice. There’s a hollow echoing of a broken heart and we are left wondering how life will move on when it all seems so messed up. We are swallowed in darkness as we see the light more further and further away. And if God is good, if God is only good, how can holy feel so far away?

I found a piece of paper crumpled up under my bed the other day, it was my scribbled handwriting. I faintly remember writing down the words before falling asleep one night, but they adequately portray the heart shattering way of African life.

When I dream at night

sometimes it’s of dying babies or friends.

It’s the African way- to die.

To be subject to an unjust life.

They give and they give and they toil in the land

but the land has no sympathy

no forgiveness, no fairness

it’s all and it’s nothing.

sometimes when I dream at night. “

I always heard that “compassion” translated as “to suffer with“, but I never truly understood compassion until this year.  I was scribbling notes before bed, crying during thunderstorms and praying for mercy.  It’s breaking and searching for the glue that will hold us all together through the long nights and the never ceasing tidal waves that threaten us.

To suffer together, to hold and to be held.  In my quest for holy, for a good God, I’ve realized that maybe we have this life all wrong, maybe the American church has it backwards.  Maybe the superficial Sunday greetings and the lukewarm Christianity was never anything but hollow, no depths of the graces of Christ.

Maybe we forgot to talk about suffering together, to feel the breaking constantly and if we are not feeling it maybe we are not bending low enough, reaching out enough. I imagine Jesus with calloused feet and arms that continually welcomed the hurting–He sat and listened, He did not run away from pain, He stayed, He wept with those suffering.

Maybe we were meant to live with broken hearts, ones that beat with compassion; with suffering for one another.

We live in a fallen world and sometimes the hollow beating of our hearts were meant for more; to strive to wash the feet, to kneel before the sinners, to hold the weeping, to break for the ones who are wandering with no place to go, to love the orphan without hesitation. Maybe we were made for compassion.

I found her standing near the door after church– she reached out for a handshake and then wrapped her arms around me in a hug; she’s the sweet girl who was made an total orphan a couple months back. I remember the text message I received and the way my heart stopped for a moment at the news of her mother’s sudden death, the way I stayed up late praying and thinking “this is wrong, oh Jesus, please no.”  I sat beside her as she whispered stories about how angry she was at her mama for leaving her, she cried tears in her own fog of pain and confusion. At the same time she stands in front of the church and praises God for life.  It’s the darkness and the light and the collision of it all.

But now,  as we stand outside the church she tells me with a big smile that she wants me to come visit her at her home and come see her high school.  I told her I would come. If only this precious girl knew how big I dreamed for her.  And I know now, compassion is not the way we feel during a Sarah McLachlan commercial- it’s not a feeling, it’s action. It is a deep and broken echoing of suffering that’s being made into something beautiful again, maybe even something holy.  Her brave beating heart is teaching me all the things I never understood about tragedy and loss, but there is also a steady rhythm of hope.

It’s in the hard and hoped filled places that holy does not seem far away.  It’s an Savior saying “touch the scars in my hands, they are strong enough to hold you, they are making all things beautiful in their time”.  So we hold each other and we wait in expectant hope that heaven is near.

We are better together- in the deepest joy and greatest sadness.

Lord, break me again and again.  Let me suffer with them if it means heaven is reaching down.

Black Lives and Why They Matter


Injustice anywhere is a threat to justice everywhere.

[Martin Luther King Jr.]

 I remember when I was young MLK & Rosa Parks were two of my heroes, their fight for justice drove me to search out what justice truly looked like. I dreamed of having a voice like them one day. I dreamed of justice, not something that’s served but something that’s fought for.

I listened to him tell about how some mornings he goes hungry but that “it’s okay because I am used to it.” He begged to stay here, he looked forward to every meal and he saw how my world contrasted his. I suddenly was hit by the injustices that are talked about on the news or read about in some magazines or broadcast by organizations looking for donations. This little love of mine goes hungry some mornings, but it’s okay because he’s used to it. He’s not privileged to wealth that will ensure filled fridges and cupboards and bellies; because he was born here and somehow he tries to make sense of these inequalities.

 I am overwhelmed by the thought that maybe, just maybe if they had been born somewhere else in the world they would have had a better chance.  They might be a small boy band or given a fair education and fed 3 meals a day. Maybe they would not have to fight the demons of having  father who spends his money on alcohol and beats their mother. Maybe he would not act out if he had a father who stuck around to teach him to be a man. If only they were not born here.

I peeked in the dark room and waited for my eyes to adjust to the light.  He was laying on a small mattress and as I listened to his slow responses, I caught a glimpse of his ribs through his shirt and blinked back the tears that wanted to come. I was sure i could have touched death that evening, it was sitting in the corner of the room waiting to claim another Ugandan life due to the corrupt healthcare system.  My knees met the floor that night, I cried myself to sleep believing death would win, that darkness would swallow him and the morning would never come.  He was still breathing the following day and because of donors I have seen a transformation unlike any other.  Just yesterday I watched him laugh until he cried recalling a story of stolen fried chicken and sneaking into the VIP section at a soccer game, and I thought: the world could have lost this, this storyteller and strong-willed soul.


And these injustices are not just in Africa, but in our own land of freedom. We must acknowledge that children living in America are still discriminated against; they go to sleep hungry and wake up to go to a school that babysits instead of teaches because class rooms are overcrowded and underfunded. It’s knowing that children in the inner cities are still dodging bullets while the privileged shouts “look how many you have killed, Black Lives Matter!” they miss the point. They miss that mothers are still fighting for their children’s rights to survive, to those mothers it’s not black and white; it’s just their babies lives and the lack of resources provided by a land of freedom.  Justice is not walking freely; justice is caged and waiting for people not to be silent.


The part that is missing from the media stories is that black lives are the future and we are losing precious souls to malaria and unclean water and unwarranted shootings and gang violence.  They are souls of potential and beauty.  Their bravery and fight and joy flows from broken places to tell a glorious story and it’s not over yet.  Black lives matter and the longer we wait in silence, the more injustice seeps into the fabric of the earth as the norm.  It’s not the norm and we can do better.

I try to make sense of the injustices and where to go from here. We stand and we fight race issues and world issues and the injustices that prevail and we must know it’s true; black lives matter. We have unresolved issues and injustices that are bigger than us and I wonder how we will ever make sense of it all. The world is made of more than inequalities though, it’s filled with warriors and overcomers and peacemakers and we will fight for harmony.

Inequality is a beast that still roams free and if we are silent in our apathy long enough we will eventually hear it’s roar.  Let’s only be silent long enough to hear their stories, then let’s follow after those childhood dreams that justice belongs to everyone.  I have heard the voiceless and I have worked with the voices and I know that there is a better day if we keep fighting in love and hope.


Hold on loves, Justice is coming.

we are their brave.


Sometimes, I am not sure if it’s my place to tell their stories.  I’m not sure if I have any right to impose and join their mess called life.  I feel out of place and so inadequate when I look at the depths of their pain.  But some how, some way, for some reason I am here in the middle of it. And some times it is life or death.

I met a man back in November, I assumed he was 40 years old. When I met him he was lying on the grass of a government hospital.  He was frail and very ill. Tuberculosis.  He got his medications and from what I understood was going to get well again.  I only saw him every few weeks.

I saw him again on Tuesday, he was sitting listening to the radio but his eyes seemed to stare into nothingness. I looked at my friend and said “he’s going to die.” So, we talked to him asked him why he had stopped taking his medication and told him if he needed anything we would get it for him, but if he wanted to be well he had to take the medication.  He told us the medication had run out and he needed more, the lady taking care of him told us he had said he just wanted to be left alone to die.

The next morning we went to the government hospital and the doctor gave us his medication for the next 28 days. While in the clinic his medical card had his age on it.  twenty two. I laughed nervously and said “but is he really 22?” Ugandans don’t keep track of their age, surely he was off by several years.

We brought him the medication and some porridge mixed with powdered milk (doctor approved and the only thing he could manage). While standing in his door his neighbor handed me his work badge with his photograph on it, the date stamped was June 2016.  I stared for so long and I didn’t want to give it back.

sometimes life is so unfair.

sometimes it takes and takes and takes but never gives back.

sometimes it’s bound to leave us frail and yearning for death.

twenty two. the young face in the photograph stared back at me, his eyes are so hopeful and his smile so big. how the heck does someone go from being so robust and handsome to this in such a short time? I glanced at him and watched as he slowly breathed, his ribs showing through his shirt. He needed to go to the hospital but we had already convinced him to take the medication and I wasn’t sure he would be convinced to go back to the hospital to be admitted for awhile. So, we asked.


He agreed.


As long as there were no needles.

I couldn’t promise him that, but we told him we wanted him well again.

In Uganda, taking someone to the hospital means that they have to have a caregiver- nurses don’t assist with going to the toilet or changing clothes or feeding the patient.  We had to find someone to go with him.

We found his father working at a gas station, he’s working 14 hour days and was so confused about what to do next for his son.

I listened as he asked his manager for money to go to the hospital.

I listened as the manager told him no.

I listened as he told us his wife died.

I listened as he said he already lost his other 2 children.

I listened as he said he was the only relative who could stay with the son, but could only probably be there a couple days as his employer wouldn’t allow longer.

We would stay if that’s what it meant.

So, tomorrow we are taking this father and son to the hospital in Kampala. It is a total faith walk because I have no idea who’s going to pay the transportation or for new clothes and bedsheets or the hospital fees or the food. But God. He’s going to make a way because that is who He is.

I hear these stories of brokenness and I cannot imagine the losses that they’ve faced. I cannot imagine fighting death when you’ve seen death take everyone you love. I look at the grief and all I can do is sink to my knees and pray and weep and long for heaven.

But I will be their brave.

I will fight when the doctor tells me that “maybe he’s just going to have to die”.

I will stay when he has nobody else too.

I will love fearlessly even if the ending may be different than what I fight for.

But I will always be their brave. always.

It’s not my story to tell, but somehow He has pulled me into their mess and I believe His redemption and glory is already written all over it.

If you can, please consider donating to pay for the medical needs.  I will head to Kampala in about 12 hours in complete faith but knowing  that He’s not leaving this part of the story unwritten. We are their brave, friends. We are the ones to stand against the immeasurable losses of this father and son.  There is no one else coming, we are it.  You can donate by clicking HERE.

Whatever we do for the least of these, for the ones enduring loss after unbearable loss, we do for His kingdom and His glory.

He’s writing the story, we are just walking in obedience.